Changes

Am preparing to make some big changes in my life this spring. Hopefully all will be positive, but am anticipating some stress related to the process of change, even if the eventual outcome is good. Am feeling really good about the projected future. But the current process requires a lot of thought and conversations about logistics.

Also, had a fabulous Ortho-Bionomy session. Really transformational and very enjoyable. :)

Oh and now I'm working on that infamous April 15th Deadline. Wish me luck!

Kick in the Butt

How many times to I need to get kicked in the butt before I figure out that quitting, even with all the financial challenges it entails, might actually be better for me than staying in this job. Then again, maybe I'm here for a reason. I am having a lot of opportunities to release old karma. But just how much is too much? What is worth enduring for spiritual growth? When is getting out of a bad situation running away, and when is it self preservation? And while I'm here, how do I figure out what is my baggage and what is theirs, when it all seems so jumbled together? What do I carry with me, and what do I leave behind?

For now, I just try to forgive and let go while I'm at work, then deal with all the messy emotions once I get home. Singing meditations help. So do appropriate Flower Essences. I know I'm learning lessons, but are the lessons worth the price?

Cellular Jungle

Braved the jungle of cell phone companies and regulations and separate departments over the weekend in an attempt to switch from a contracted account to a prepaid account. It turns out that even though my 2 year contract expired several months ago, I still have to wait until my monthly contract expires in two weeks. Ugh. But the first person I talked to neglected to mention that, so my service got suspended, but I couldn't start new service for two weeks. How annoying! So then I had to spend an hour trying to convince SOMEONE to re-connect my phone SOMEHOW so if something terrible happens in the next two weeks I'll still have cell phone service. Amazing how addicted I've become to knowing that little device is available in case of an emergency. What did we do before mobile phones were invented? Oh yeah, people actually stopped and helped each other! That's right! But we're too independent now to be interdependent any more. Grr.

But other than that I had a good weekend. :) And I did learn something from this whole fiasco.

Found Something

Nil

I've been trying for 2 hrs to think of something worth posting. Some up-date worth giving the world. And still nothing comes to me. Nada. Zip. This baby is going to wake up soon, and then I'll have missed my chance. So I'll post a nothing post, instead.

Life Lessons

One of my big life lessons this time around seems to have to do with setting boundaries. I keep ending up in jobs where the people I work for have a hard time "letting" me set my own boundaries. This is not a good situation, because I can get so strongly defensive of my boundaries if I am repeatedly pushed.

This morning I spent an hour on the phone with my mom, figuring out how to set an important boundary without resorting to anger and threats and name-calling. It hasn't come up so far today, but I'm able to cope with that, because I know that I am prepared to respond if it dose get mentioned. My mom even helped me come up with a possible alternate solution to offer! :)

Snorring Old Men and Falling Pets

So we are finally getting some much needed rain. It feels more like a proper winter--we've been having a drought the past couple of years with not nearly enough rainfall. This winter is feeling more like the winters I remember from my first couple of years out here--lots of intermittent rain with some sunny days in between. I'm not sure what's really "normal" for this climate, given El Nino, and Global Warming and all that, but rain is good. :)

Wet weather did somewhat dampen my weekend--the Farmer's Market was rather soggy--but I still had a lovely V-day with my BF. Also spent time planning a church service for next month and doing projects around the house.