Reprieve

I have been going through the mill this past month, but after a good deal of thought, healing work, and deep conversation with those closet to me, I have finally found the solution that was right in front of me all along. It's weird how we block ourselves from seeing the obvious solution. I thought I would have to move away from the Bay Area for a while, but it turns out that there is a way I can stay. I feel so relieved. So happy. So grateful to have figured this out before it was too late to make it happen.

Blessed Be.

Bang, Bang, Clang

So go the plumbers. But my unit is mostly done. But it will take another week or two to finish the building. So I deal with the materials taking over the yard I don't use because it's full of cigarette butts and bugs and doesn't get much sun.

Working at the Full Circle Farm is really fun. I met someone yesterday with interesting ideas about one of the businesses I'm looking into starting. I have a dozen or so ideas--part of my job right now is to narrow things down to what I really want to do. And how to make it lucrative. That's the real trick, isn't it?

Fun, fun, fun.

Coming up for Air

Today is much better. I've been under a cloud of worry about certain events that finally began to take place in the past few days. Just having things underway helps a lot. The invasion of the plumbers has started and *hopefully* will not be as horrid as expected. Personal life is starting to have a bit more promise.

Small Business Class is progressing. Decided to stop waiting for answers that were not forthcoming. Am a bit disappointed in the gap between advertised "interactivity" of on-line class and lack of teacher help when I posted my question in the appropriate place.

Working on plans to solve financial problems. Moving forward. Glad for current reprieve from depression. Not holding my breath, but not confident I'm out of the woods yet, either.

Business of Living

I've been quite lately because I've been so grumpy it's been hard to come up with anything to post. But on the good side, my mom found me an excellent self-help book called Life the Life You Love which I'm using to help me figure out what I really want to do. I'm also taking an on-line class in starting a small business. I keep coming up with great ideas, but since most of them involve running my own business, I thought I'd better get some business smarts! So here I go. Wish me luck!

Standing Up For Myself

I'm starting to learn that if I want my needs taken into consideration I need to stand up and make them known. I'm working on doing this kindly, but strongly. It's hard to find the balance between meekness and belligerence.

Coming Back to Balance

My life is finally coming back to balance, and I'm starting to organize how to go about looking at my options and figure out what do do next and what my priorities need to be. What's helping the most it being involved with stuff like volunteering and social groups. I've started attending my library's knitting club and volunteering at a local organic community farm and I might even join the church choir--all things I've been wanting to do, but didn't have time for while I was working. So life is starting to be good again.

All Fall Down

Well, everything I was juggling collapsed on Tuesday. I'm trying to pick up the pieces, sort through them, and figure out what the new picture is, now that some of the pieces to the old picture are gone.

I've been up and down and am trying just to get my barrings. I have several ideas of what comes next, but nothing firm yet.